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| It's been crazy hectic since coming back to school, ther hasn't been a
free second to write. This weekend is the culmination of all of that:
end of six week exams, PRT os over with, and opening night is tonight.
Looking forward to relaxing, getting back into working out, focusing on
school.... sleeping  More updates from now on...
But I must run, as a wonderful six-in and my last six week exam awaits.
But tonight.....
OPENING NIGHT of
DAMN YANKEES!
2000 Mahan Hall
Go to the ticket office now 
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| So it’s New Year’s Eve 2005. Time for some reflection and writing. I got the idea from someone else’s Xanga and it seemed like a good idea. Follows a month by month recollection of the past year. The good and the bad, both memories and thoughts. A few pictures to be thrown in when I get back to school…
So the first four months of this year kind of blend together for me. It was second semester of plebe year. I was hating life at the Naval Academy and wanted to transfer schools. I felt like I was stuck in a place I had always wanted to be, but it was nothing like what I had ever imagined it. Not to dwell on the bad, as things would get better. We were the company in the brigade known for our ridiculous back to basics (SDB’s, trash can inspections and one-way p-ways ring a bell?) I started highland dancing sometime within that semester, which was not great at first, but got better each time I went. We went to Canada with the girls, had a great time and got to be better friends with Megan, Alison and Jaci. Spring Break turned out to be a quiet affair at home. The week after Spring Break we went on our Glee Club Spring tour to Dallas/ Fort Worth, Texas. Emily Knight and I stayed together at a sponsor’s house and we had a good time. I had a good time with all the girls, we got to meet the CNO, and Billy Bob’s was a lot of fun. Smiles for glee club trips.
May. The end of classes, finals, and an uneventful intercessional break at home. The last three weeks of May were the best three weeks I’ve ever spent at the academy. Sea trials came and went very well, despite how much I was fearing and dreading it. It felt good, I’m glad I didn’t get block zero and did it. Then Herndon- yes Class of 2006, we did beat you J Life as a youngster-lower half was quite fun for two weeks. Lots of going out and relaxing. Getting to hang out with Ryan and Laz and Jim and get to know them all much better. Movies, dinners, moving out of the hall. Lots of good memories that I like to look back on. It was simply relaxing and lots of fun. Never before have I felt so unstressed and happy. Times were good. May concluded with the graduation of the class of 2005. An insanely early and long graduation ceremony later, Arwyn and I put on Ryan’s shoulder boards, and we were young-stars for real ;)
June. Started off with two relaxing weeks at home. My nineteenth birthday, (a sparkly little dress, fake tan and the theatre, haha), spending a lot of time with Kyle… the usual break at home. Then I came back to Annapolis for CSNTS. For as many bad things as I had heard and how much I was dreading it CSNTS turned out to be a lot of fun. Thanks to CDR Cuthbert, the coolest OIC in the program, we had a blast. Swimming, swinging off the halyards, racing other boats- just a good time. I never thought I could have that much fun sailing before. It was beautiful and really fun out there. I was nominated to be an XO for this coming summer for CSNTS, but recently found out I can’t due to being in the musical. However, I really want to learn to sail and do more of it. Not much more to say to that.
July. Right after CSNTS I had a weekend off and then flew out to San Diego for my fleet cruise. The weekend in between Jim was in town too and we got to hang out and go out to lunch. It was nice to hang out and talk. A nearly missed flight out to San Diego the next day and I went aboard the LHD-6, USS Bonhomme-Richard. We sat in port for all but three days of the 4 weeks I was out there, so we saw a lot of the city of San Diego. Meeting some very interesting enlisted guys, being part of the bridge crew during a refueling and loading bombs onto helos during an UNREP were the things to remember from out very short underway. Hanna and I sent a lot of time hanging out and getting to know each other. It was a fun four weeks.
August. The beginning of August brought me back to good old Latrobe, PA. The next three weeks at home were spent with Kyle, just hanging out, going to the movies, amusement parks… having a good time. Then came reform… back to school was definitely an interesting time. The reality of not being a plebe finally hit, everything seemed kind of out of place at school. It was a nice change though, and young-star year started off great. Despite the not so popular brigade policy changes everything was going very well.
September. Was simply a continuation from the end of August. Classes were a challenge and a lot of work, but everything was going well. Things got rough starting midway through September. I broke someone’s heart and had my heart broken. After a year and a half with the most amazing guy, I broke up with Kyle. I can’t say why falling out of love happens, I’m not sure I know why I grew to feel differently, or if I ever will understand that. All that I can hope is that I can feel as deeply again as I did with Kyle, that I can love like that again. He deserves only the best in the future. Thank you for loving me and teaching me to love.
I owe a big thank you to the girls and guys who were there and have continued to be there for me over the last few months through everything that’s happened. Following shortly after the break-up with Kyle, a series of events occurred with Jim that caused misunderstandings and a lot more hurt. Not to go into detail about either situation, but I was pretty messed up for quite awhile afterwards.
October. I was pretty messed up over the things that had been happened, and couldn’t do much effectively in school, I was distracted and confused all the time. However, at the beginning of October we took a trip to NYC with Catholic Choir. It was an amazing time and a great trip. The big piano at FAO Schwartz, dinner’s in little Italy, a nice performance at the church, the comedy club, clubbing for the first time…. Lots of J And yes, Ms. Jess Troska and I will be going to see “the ball drops here” next New Year’s Eve!  Come the end of October we went to Notre Dame for Highland Dancing. A good time with the girls- Megan and I had lots of fun. Dinner with the Pipes and Drummers, a not so fun dance at St. Mary’s and an AMAZING concert and then party with the glee club boys. Definitely the highlight of the weekend. Megan, we’re so obsessed with those boys ;)
November. Classes were hard , and troubles were still weighing heavily on my mind as November rolled around. Glee club became my sanctuary at school, as most of my friends are there. Surrounded by smiling faces, Messiah, and Christmas music, it never failed to make me smile. Hood College turned out to be a very interesting yet fun weekend overall, making new friends and getting to sing. Thanksgiving break came and went quickly, with just one day at home for me. Then back to school for the start of Army-Navy craziness.
December. The end of the year was perhaps the busiest and craziest month of the year. Army Navy week was crazy as usual. Megan and I camped out in the warmth of the bathroom for most of the Army-Navy game, we danced for the Admiral’s and General’s Gala, and had a good time. Hung out with Ned, Brian, and Megan the rest of the weekend for a relaxed, low-key, enjoyable time. Came back to a busy week of exams, then into the real exam week. To be honest, I let the issues and emotions that had been ruling my life since the end of September get to me, and did not do much studying for finals. My first D on a final taught me I need to work much harder next semester ;) Things with Kyle and Jim came to a point in December with a conversation of sorts for both situations. I really hope that this will be the point to finally move on- no more tears, no more hurt- it’s been four months and we’ve all got to find some closure… but more about that later.
After finals I went home for two days, ran into some good high school friends at my little sister’s band concert (wow I cant believe she’s a senior), went to visit my old teacher’s at high school (with Chaz, my classmate the current pleber J), and then flew out to sunny San Diego to spend 5 days with Megan and attend the bowl game. Lots of fun- staying with best friends, hosting a fiesta at the Greene’s, the bowl game, meeting new people… it was absolutely wonderful. Then I came home for Christmas, and have not been doing much since. I’ve recently realized that my friends form school have become the most important things in my life. Home has never been my favorite place, and since the day I walked in my door all I’ve wanted to do was go back ‘home’ to Annapolis. For all the stressors and bad parts about school- the people that really matter are there. I can’t wait to be back there, back with them.
So there it is. The year 2005 in a (kind of) quick review. Tomorrow or in the next few days there will be another decent sized entry with New Year’s resolutions and plans for the coming year. Until then…
HAPPY NEW YEAR! to all of you- I hope that the happiest days are to come for all of us.
Welcome 2006
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| Theres been a lot on my mind as of late. Not new issues or good or bad things, it's just that without school as a distraction and friends to talk to, theres a lot more time for thinking. I think tomorrow I'll write quite a bit. Possibly post it in parts over the next few days.
I dont know that anyone reads this, and thats fine with me. Its more an outlet for myself than for anyone to read. I guess I put it here for the people who care to read it, thats what matters. The posts that are too personal cant be read puclic anyway...
Im debating moving to a written journal... perhaps I will.
Ok, i think im off to do a short workout and get some sleep.
Still need to get the room finished cleaned, and pack clothes for europe/ spring semester....
goodnight for now...
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| i never thought it would be like this
i want to go back to school
despite all the bad parts, the good parts are much better
i miss my friends
home isn't fun any more
hopefully i'll at least get to see my high school kids to make things good
its been far too long since ive seen them, most of them since before i left for i-day....
wow
off to enjoy more mindless tv and christmas cookies, maybe a workout too....
9 more days?
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| statics- crash and burn
nav- pretty good I think
Bringing the total to:
Us-1 Them-1
Just kind of relaxing til messiah tonight. Last night was really bad
for me, probobly why I did pretty bad on statics. Up late, feeling
really sick, and not enough studying. Anyway, its over, and Ive learned
ive got to forget about all the emotional stuff and people and think
about school and happy things right now.
So, this is my "i dont want to staudy for aero yet so Im just wasting time...
thinking about what happened the weekend of messiah last year... what a difference a year can make... wow
im not sure which I like better, last years smiles and naivity, or this
years troubles and reality with the friends I know Ive got no matter
what who make life wonderful
i guess we all have to grow up sooner or later....
anyway, yeah for messiah tonight?
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